This is not an excerpt from ‘Your Last Breath’. It’s more a snapshot of the thoughts and feelings our serial killer, Ray Lang, had in his earlier life. What influenced his later decision to kill? Was it the negative reactions of his family perhaps, or did he already have the inclination to harm others? Maybe both of these played some part in the person he became. Judge for yourself when you read his journal.
Ray’s Journal: 6th Entry
From literary genius to brain dead dunce in less than a day. So damn frustrating!!! I don’t know what happened. One minute I was writing this great piece, then the next I was back to writing crap. It’s like someone flipped a switch in my brain the words turned off. I’ve spent days, weeks really, trying to figure out what happened. How could I be able to write so beautifully one minute, then so shittely the next? I know that isn’t a word, but it best describes how I’m writing. The only solution I can come up with is adrenaline. The rush I got after killing Valerie is what allowed me to write so well. The problem is, I can’t just go around killing people just so I can write. Hell, for all I know the cops will be breaking down my door any minute to arrest me. I can’t believe they haven’t been here already to at least question me.
I have tried simulating the adrenaline rush with several different methods. Scary movies, standing on the edge of a roof, walking through rush hour traffic, cutting myself, I even tried a quick round of Russian Roulette with Martin’s uncle’s revolver last night. I can get a glimmer of brilliance, but never for long. I have even tried killing animals to get the rush, but it’s just not the same….
To continue reading see: https://gleanermansblog.wordpress.com/2017/11/13/rays-journal-6th-entry/
Ray’s Journal: 1st Entry here: https://gleanermansblog.wordpress.com/2017/11/06/rays-journal-1st-entry/